I thought my self esteem and self worth would immediately rise with this change, I thought if you cut out the root of the problems the problems would disappear. But here I still am. I still wake up with a crushing sensation of worthlessness. I even look at my friends and feel as if Im not good enough for them. I cant even look at myself in a mirror for too long without wanting to cry. I feel ugly, useless, forgettable. I feel ruined.